Scott Tibbs
blog post
March 31rd, 2004

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I don't understand

For the last seven years, I've been dealing with persistent nausea, for which the doctors can't seem to find a cause. It seemed to be under control until January, but the last three months have been especially bad. I've had several severe spells, four times having to go get a shot of phenergan to calm my stomach down.

Through all of this, my faith in God has been shaken. I don't understand why I ma fighting this, and the worst thing is not knowing what is causing it despite all the tests I have had done. I sometimes feel that He has abandoned me. Yet I know that He loves me, and though I can't see it now He has a plan to use this for His purposes. It is very hard to trust God when I'm having a severe nausea spell, but His Word promises He won't leave us.

Lord, I put my faith and trust in You, and I know You will see me though this.

This blog is moving downward on my list of priorities, as I struggle spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically to deal with this problem. I enjoy posting and will try to continue to do so, but I don't know how much time and energy this is going to leave me with.

For any readers of this post who are Christians, I ask you to pray for me. Pray that God will give me healing and faith during this time of struggle.